Updates...updates

But actually (I have this tendency of starting my sentence with this phrase)- there's nothing much to update.. Too much to summarise. But like I have already said from the first blog that I wrote.. this is so expected of me. I kinda just remembered that I have a blog which I have not been updating for months now.

And even after months, I'm still stuck at the same spot I was before.

Same husband.

Same job.

Same predicament.

But do you know that tomorrow I'm going for my 'talak' trial- do call it a trial or a proceeding? anyways- i was ' dijatuhkan talak satu' but of course we got back again because I just didn't want to leave just yet. It seems easy, especially when he accidentally opened the gate- all I need to do was run. But I have the kids with me. If I leave, I don't want to run. The kids could have been left behind or hurt in some ways. So.. it's just not the time.

Confession of A Chic Lit Freakaholic

Can you keep a secret?

Promise that you won't tell?

I have just finished reading 'Confession of A Shopaholic'.

For those who still having your eyebrow twisted trying to figure out why the hell this is such a secret, let me just explain. It is like an unwritten rule of all the self acclaimed Chic Lit fan that this book should be one of the top must read book list. Hence, I have been nodding and agreeing with other chic lit fans when they talk about this book, never to expose the real truth.

Even when I finally bought this book, I had to tell people that I lost my copy and needed to refresh my memory before the movie comes out. Not that they asked, but it's like you know.. one of those things you just feel the need to justify.

So what do I think of this book? 5 years ago if I did pick up this book and read it, I would probably just rave about it uncontrollably! But today, I am lil bit more in touch with reality. Though the plot and even some of scenes of impromptu buying- or that part when she just shoved the credit bills and hid it, seemed to be a lil too familiar, in the real world- Becca is married with 2 kids, enemplyed husband and desperately trying to pay her debts while still having this obsession with shopping! In reality, there is no coincidental scene of working at a tv station or the 15th most eligible and richest bachelor swooping my ass of this misery.

But for that whole 3 days of reading the book, I did feel happy. True joy of knowing how this is normal and there are thousand of people like me out there. And for that one moment, I did wish that someone will come and save me. And for that one moment, I did believe it will all be better.

Sipping Kopi Ais at Pak Li..

Geez, I have not update this blog for like ages now, no thanks to my new office. I'm lucky that they still allow us to go on yahoo and facebook. Five months down the road, I don't really know how I feel about my new job. Currently at this point of time, I really don't see myself working there long. I just don't fit in the whole 'integrity' philosophy that they so proudly preach about. And I think some of them are just pure hypocrites!! But comparing them to my plastic trees, I'm not sure who would win, tho'.

So now I'm at Pak Li, desperately looking for openings in Saudi. I've applied like 400 times and it seems that everyone else is going there except for me. Of course this is unfair, I've fought with God and made my peace over and over again. But this is life, I'm sure God has a better plan for me. I sure hope there's a better husband too in that plan. Haha!

Today, 8th March- I am still 10 kg overweight, life has not changed that much. Husband has gone back to being unemployed. Still day dream about life of the riches (sometimes a bit over the top!). But I have good friends around, two kids whom I absolutely blessed with. I have a job. My parents and my siblings. And though I don't want to admit it, but I am happy.

Alhamdullilah.