Jealousy...

They say we should be happy for others, and that our time will come.. but how true is that? Everyone, if not talking about buying a house, is already having one. Even the blog I was reading was talking about house hunting. A friend of mine is about to get her keys to the new house and she is not even married yet. And here I am, 31 yrs old. Married. With two kids. Staying with my parents and could never ever experience that feeling of having your own house. That sense of security and accomplishment. Why, because I'm blacklisted and I don't see myself being unblacklisted in this lifetime.
So do I envy the rest of the world? Yes. But I try not to. Trying to be positive. Hey, you never know. Perhaps I'll win a house from those slogans competition, or I stumble upon a bag full of money or.. hmm.. well.. I can always dream.

Why I hate my job..

Hm.. I don't actually hate my job.. let me rephrase that.. I hate the people that I work with.. And no 1 reason..

The very first day that I'm back in the office I was summoned to replace this person (we call her cookie..long story..) to go for this Spoken English course in Royale Bintang, KL. Dont get me wrong- I love going for external courses- anything to be away from the office, but I don't quite see why anyone should go for this course.

Key topics: Parts of Speech, Greetings, etc..etc..

Target audience: Clerk, despatch, customer service personnel etc..etc..

I'm like?? what the hey.. I'm not saying that my English is superb and all that- but it is my forte and the reason I believe I was hired. And they considering this 'XX' consultants to train our staff.. and I've never even heard of this consultancy.. i would understand if the prefer British Council ke, ELS or ERICAN for that matter over me..but this one?

K, fine. I'm a nobody- I should just do it rite, less work for me anyway. But I just knew it will somehow create a bad impression of me..

Whateverlah.. wish me luck and hopefully I get back in one piece.

p.s: the last time I was in KL was hmmm.. I can't even remember!!

What the heck I'm doin in the office? Part II

k.. my level of productivity today is ..let me see.. maybe about 25%. And that is for updating my dependants' list @hr department.. other than that I don't see any reason why i should be here.. I think my two munckins need me more at home and there are 1001 things I can do.. yes including changing diapers for 38 times, chasing Dany to get him to shower, pinning him down (picture WWF wrestler in action) to brush his teeth etc..etc..

I know I'm not supposed to write about them in this blog- I've designated a blog just for them cos i'm determine to make this space as a place for me to bitch about my life, people (most of the time my husband, of course) and everythingelse cos I am almost insane- but I couldn't help it.. I miss my kids..

Being with the for a solid two month duration was actually not bad at all. Of course there were times when I want to just kill myself or my husband- but I'm now used to Dany's mischieves and Germanish Jibberish talk. Ady on the other hand is the perfect baby- there would be times when he couldn't sleep at night and had me going til 3-4 a.m but most often than not he would sleep thru the night.

And now I'm back at work and the bloody Vincci shoes hurt like hell!! Damn you 50% off shoes..

SELAMAT PENGANTIN BARU ADIKKU

JUNAIDAH

& MEGAT HELMY

It's about time people!!

Wish you all the best and of course to my favourite brother in law.. I know u can do this!! Love ya'..

And I'm back in the game...

7.35 am

Alone in the office. My first day, had teribble time choosing for the right clothes.. one that can actually fit me. I seriously hate being here.. Don't know if I hate the job or working all together.. i wish I can just stay home and still got paid.. Why can't maternity leave be..like... forever? anyways- to make me feel good on this very memorable day- bought myself a brand new shoes- 50% off from Vincci..Yey!

and can someone please switch on th a/c- it's bloody hot in here!! or is it just me?