Tired...

My pantang regime is definitely over.. well at least the food part- I am still not allowed to go out.. the food however, now that I am past a month, my mom is definitely lenient in my food selection.. (not that she knows what I've been eating weeks before)
I have three more weeks before my sister's wedding and to also lose 8 kg's.. Am I living in the reality or am I still allowed to dream... On that note, I sometimes dream of killing my husband too.. I think I am going nuts!!