Serabut

As my title reads... I am so messed up rite now.. A lot of things had happened in the month of May.. May is not a good month this year.. but it is also the month of my sister's wedding- June and her long time boyfriend who is already part of the family.. Maybe I should rephrase is to a hectic month instead..

I am going back to work in a few days time.. not looking forward to it.. partly because I hate my workplace and also a huge factor would be the fact that I can't fit in any of my baju except of course my preggie clothes!! Damn it..

Evrything is just wrong right now.. I had to let go of this so 'worth it' apartment that we found.. I love it so much and it was darn cheap for a beautifully furnished apartment. And I forgot the fact that my mom can't take care of Adyan cos she has loads of other things to do.. We can;t hire a maid cos we don't have xtra rooms.. Meaning if we do I have to actually move out.. meaning.. on top of paying the rent (which we can't afford- thus the reason of letting go the apartment) I have to pay for the maid.. So what now? To send Adyan to a babysitter is the only way that I can afford rite now but I am so so sceptical about it..

With all this on my shoulders rite- the only thing to do is to cut my hair and pretend that I am a princess in my very own La La Land! And everything is happily ever after...