Serabut

As my title reads... I am so messed up rite now.. A lot of things had happened in the month of May.. May is not a good month this year.. but it is also the month of my sister's wedding- June and her long time boyfriend who is already part of the family.. Maybe I should rephrase is to a hectic month instead..

I am going back to work in a few days time.. not looking forward to it.. partly because I hate my workplace and also a huge factor would be the fact that I can't fit in any of my baju except of course my preggie clothes!! Damn it..

Evrything is just wrong right now.. I had to let go of this so 'worth it' apartment that we found.. I love it so much and it was darn cheap for a beautifully furnished apartment. And I forgot the fact that my mom can't take care of Adyan cos she has loads of other things to do.. We can;t hire a maid cos we don't have xtra rooms.. Meaning if we do I have to actually move out.. meaning.. on top of paying the rent (which we can't afford- thus the reason of letting go the apartment) I have to pay for the maid.. So what now? To send Adyan to a babysitter is the only way that I can afford rite now but I am so so sceptical about it..

With all this on my shoulders rite- the only thing to do is to cut my hair and pretend that I am a princess in my very own La La Land! And everything is happily ever after...

Black Cloud Went Passing By..

In loving Memories of,

Naini bt Ibrahim

(1925- 14th June 2008)

I love you Wan, though I never get to say it to you. Al- fatihah.

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A friendly community service reminder..

This is specially for Mommies, going to be mommies or planning to be mommies...

Please stay true to the legacy of 'berpantang'.. Don't cheat.. be strong... it's only 44 days... U know y?

Cos you'd probably end up like me if you didn't...

:(

I am nowdown with a flu.. coughing, running nose and slight temperature.. kesian baby! So don't ever do that to your new born child for the sake of pleasing your taste buds..

I have now learnt my lesson!!

Tired...

My pantang regime is definitely over.. well at least the food part- I am still not allowed to go out.. the food however, now that I am past a month, my mom is definitely lenient in my food selection.. (not that she knows what I've been eating weeks before)
I have three more weeks before my sister's wedding and to also lose 8 kg's.. Am I living in the reality or am I still allowed to dream... On that note, I sometimes dream of killing my husband too.. I think I am going nuts!!