AAAAAAAAAAAAAARGGHHH!!!

I am so frustrated rite now.. this is the biggest frustration this year.. hmm.maybe the second biggest.. the biggest would be my cowardness in dealing with the labour pain and not asking the doctor to wait.. the second would be finding out that the name DARIUS actually bears meaning!!!! I loveeee that name so much but it didn't sound like it has any meaning to it..well at least not in Islamic way..so i didn't even bother to look up!
but I just found out from this site- my-anak.com (confinement boredom..) that the meaning is- baik budi- tinggi... AAAAAAAAARRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHH.... this is one of those moments where I wish I could turn back the time.. apparently these moments happen quite often lately..