I just want to fly away...

I'm tired... tired of being pregnant.. tired of my husband..tired of the fact that I'm still staying with my mom.. tired of thinking how I'm going to manage financially when the baby comes.. tired of being in debts.... tired!

I wish I can swap places with my husband. I don't think he has a single worry in his brain.. perhaps he does but nothing comes out of it. Not working, not bringin doe to the family- yet everything is provided..maybe not luxuriously cos I don't give him money- especially when I don't have any. But there's food at home (which sometimes he complains when they finished), a place to sleep without having to pay rent(also he complains because my parents don't really give him the royal treatment) and when asked about money- he would just say, 'I don't know'. And then I would be biting my lips again.

Why bite my lips you asked? Well- the last time I said something back he hit me and my munchkin.

Then why am still married to him you asked? Cos' I'm still gathering all my nerves and my guts to make that big step.....

I hate this.. I'm talking crap.. I'm just tired.. I just want to go to sleep and not think of anything at all.. and that is just wishful thinking cos in 15 minutes time I have a class to go to!