What the heck I'm doin in the office?

These are my stash for today.. :) of course, before coming in I had my usual roti canai at this mamak's nearby. Don't really know when I'm eating the nasi lemak cos lunch we're planning to go to the cafeteria.. but this tamak haloba attitude is so me.. but no worries.. it shall not go to waste.. btw- this is my favourite RM1 nasi lemak- the sambal is the bomb- literally!! smoke will definitely shoot out from your ears!!
So apart from planning my meal- these are the other important things that I currently am doing in the office:

1. Blogging
2. Meebo-ing (although not chatting really- everyone's so busy)
3. Looking for out station jobs- particularly mid. eastern
4. counting... the minutes till 5.30 pm

and all this stuff is actually making my pinggang sakit.. I think I should get off my butt and take a walk...

Still pregnant...

Notice my ticker.. ' I really like it in my mummy's tummy'?.. I think my munchkin is thinking exactly that....and he's pulling another Dany's stunt which is.. you have to force me to get me out of here...

I'm already like a puffed rounded balloon.. rolling around in my office and I look like if you poke my tummy it will just go 'POP'.. all stretched up but nothing.. yeah the occasional pain but nothing big enough of a sign that tells 'I'm coming out soon...!!' And the more I think that I'm past my due date and it's coming to an end soon.. the more food I'll eat just to make up for the confinement.. I betcha from last Friday until today, I probably have put on 2-3 kgs! My last appointment which was Friday, though I didn't put on any kg's at all- had that CTG scan-baby's ok, very active but contractions were still mild.. and I opted to wait still...

I know c-section is the easiest way out.. but if God permits and the baby's good I would still want to try for normal delivery... so guys just pray for me..

I just want to fly away...

I'm tired... tired of being pregnant.. tired of my husband..tired of the fact that I'm still staying with my mom.. tired of thinking how I'm going to manage financially when the baby comes.. tired of being in debts.... tired!

I wish I can swap places with my husband. I don't think he has a single worry in his brain.. perhaps he does but nothing comes out of it. Not working, not bringin doe to the family- yet everything is provided..maybe not luxuriously cos I don't give him money- especially when I don't have any. But there's food at home (which sometimes he complains when they finished), a place to sleep without having to pay rent(also he complains because my parents don't really give him the royal treatment) and when asked about money- he would just say, 'I don't know'. And then I would be biting my lips again.

Why bite my lips you asked? Well- the last time I said something back he hit me and my munchkin.

Then why am still married to him you asked? Cos' I'm still gathering all my nerves and my guts to make that big step.....

I hate this.. I'm talking crap.. I'm just tired.. I just want to go to sleep and not think of anything at all.. and that is just wishful thinking cos in 15 minutes time I have a class to go to!

38 weeks.....and counting

Here's the thing... I'MMMMMMMMMMMM SICK AND TIREDDDDDDDDD OF THISSSSSSSSSS ALREADDDDDDDDYYYY!!!...

Sorry munchkin- nothing personal but the cramps and the heavy thighs are killing mummy..

I went to see my Doc twice last week. First on Tues, found out that I was about 3 cm dilated- then Doc set me up for Friday.. Friday came. Went to see my Doc and voila! Today, I'm still in the office, working. The dilation is still the same..no changes. We did that scan to check the baby's heartbeat and my contractions which I was having thru out the day (They call it the Braxton Hicks..'mild' contraction.. my ass...) Anyways.. I lied down for half an hour to check..but nothing! I mean- my lil munchkin is healthy- Alhamdullilah..cos the heartbeat and the movements are good. But no contraction whatsoever... Just before I went in the Doc's office I had that uncomfortable feeling down under but it stopped just when I stepped inside the office..

So u see..my lil munchkin is already playing games with me.. and so since everything is ok, I'm back to my once week routine with my Doctor! And still working today.. Gosh..how I wish I have 100 days of annual leave so I can start my maternity leave rite away.. Getting up in the morning is already a big issue- choosing what to wear..walking to the bathroom is another..

Today in the office.. I refuse to make any unneccessary movement except when it's time to find food and my pee pee session (which happens to be every 15- 30 minutes). Cos this morning I've been having that pain on and off. Nothing severe.. it's just quite annoying at this rate.. especially when I'm walking and the pain lasts for few minutes. Imagine, walking in the shopping mall and suddenly you're making funny faces trying to bear the pain... People probably think that u're about to give birth... Happens to be all the time and now I just don't care!

I notice that everytime I meet anyone at the corridor- which is a lot because of my trips to the toilet..there would be no other topic apart from my belly. Which at first seems kinda nice but now kinda like irritating.. But today's was very very interesting.. As usual- 'how far a long' question, 'normal or c-section?' yadi yadi yada.. and then it led to.. 'you should have sex'.

'??!!' What the.. apparently if I want it to be soon, sex would do the job..especially now at 38 weeks.. Yes, I'd love to get it out of me but sex remedy..hmm.. heard about it.. but.. u know.. No 1.. I'm a fat ugly whale..which translates to 'unattractive' and not very arousing to look at...

No 2.. I don't even think my husband is interested rite now cos believe me.. I know.. He has not been attempting at all for weeks now(which makes me really happy).. I don't know.. what do you reckon?

3cm DILATED!!!

Remember yesterday when I said I hate it when my Doc said everything is normal..my pain is normal, cramps normal...bla bla bla... last night was different!
Doc actually made this very uncomfortable check down under and discovered that I am 3 cm dilated!! Then we did the CTG- the baby is ok, contraction is very mild (<-- mild to them of course!) and he asked me whether I want to wait or come in anytime to be induced.
Induced? Yeah right! I've gone thru the induced pain- I'll try not to go thru that again! Anyway..I'm only 37 weeks and the baby's head still not engaged just yet, and the pain? Been having it for the past few weeks- so I think I can handle it for the next few days and see what happens. As long the lil munchkin is still alright and healthy- although I do notice that he doesn't move as much nowadays. Perhaps no more room to kick around and do somersault!
I don't really know how I'm feeling.. I'm eager to get this baby out but at the same time I'm scared.. I just want the baby to be healthy and to have a normal delivery without complications.. don't really know what to expect for the next few days.. I know that I'm dued for another check up this Friday.. guys- pray for me..

37 weeks

Congratulations! Your baby is full-term! This means that if your baby arrives now, his lungs should be fully mature and ready to adjust to life outside the womb, even though your due date is still three weeks away. He weighs 6 1/3 pounds and measures a bit over 19 inches, head to heel (like a stalk of Swiss chard). Many babies have a full head of hair at birth, with locks from 1/2 inch to 1 1/2 inches long.

http://www.babycenter.com/

Imagine! 37 weeks now and 3 more weeks to go.. but still I can't wait for the 3 weeks to be over.. I'm getting heavier and heavier everyday, going to my weekly check- ups nowadays is like going to the dentist..I hate the weighing part and also the part when my doc would say my cramps and pains are all normal.. Normal my ass!! There's nothing normal about feeling your uterus is being twisted or those stabbing pains towards my punani or screaming at night because of my leg cramps!! Or having to go to the loo for every 15 mins... but that I can still bear and grin.. it's the fact that I look more and more like an Mrs Snufflelafegus everyday is just unbearable!!!

Anyywas.. my check up is tonite! :( hope the baby is ok but I am pretty sure I'm not going to like my weight gain..

TEN REASON WHY I'M STILL MARRIED TO HIM

1. .......

hmm...

.... (cricket sound).......

................................... ten minutes past...........

...went to the loo and came back......

....hmm..I can't think of any reason why I'm married to him except for this one..

I am just stupid and scared to make that drastic move in my life.........

SHOWER ME BABY!!

Sunday:2 March 2008

Venue: Coffee Bean, OU

Theme: Black & White









I finally had my baby shower- after hinting and kinda provoking my friends to do it (*I know I was annoying guys, but that's what friends are for... )
We had a black and white theme- we even had the black and white balloons which were the kids' favourite! The kids had a blast- a few other customers were probably thinking of killing us but heck, wait til they have children! But I'm pretty sure the next time we go there we would be blacklisted from entering..












As usual I had my Blackforest Vanilla- this time around LARGE! For the days of longing I had to endured....

This is Warda trying to.. god knows what she's trying to do.. perhaps imagining being in a different place..hahaha...











I know it was not exactly a proper baby shower- it was more of an excuse to hang out and slurp on my BFV, but nevertheless- it was a blast and I thank you guys from the bottom of my pencil case. I LLLLURVE the presents too....

And this was when the chaos started!! When we ambitiously decided to go shopping and walk to the other wing to crash MARKS & SPENCER! The rest went crazy buying cheap panties, I went crazy chasing Dany all over M&S!

p/s: Fab, I still feel teribble when Dany bit Boy's hand.. I'm soooo sorry<-- long story!

Finally! Baby's Cot Spread

I'm so glad we went for the Anakku warehouse sale! I finally got my cot set- a set of the comforter, two bolsters, a pillow and the bed sheet for only RM40!!We also bought a mattress of the same print for RM10. Don't ask me though about the funky colours and I won't blame it entirely on my husband cos at first I also thought it was cool..u know.. really funky monkey...The only thing that I regret was not buying another one.. but money is really tight so I just had to swallow it and walked away.. almost.. I tell you... was already holding the one with the tiny teddy bear theme... *sigh...

The cute thing was- when we got home- Abang thought it was for him and 'tested' the products first. Now that I bought the set, I'm more than ever determine to make full use of the cot! No more toy container for Dany this time- I'll cot train my lil munchkin from Day 1! Wish me luck.. <-- don't forget that I AM staying with my mom k?

Why can't they all just SHUT the F@#@ UP!!

I can't take this anymore! You know when someone made a remark on you and you just feel like slapping their face...Erghh... I just had itlah... I mean..what's wrong with this people? Or is it the new trend of greeting nowadays? No more, 'Hallo, Good morning!' it is now...' Hallo.. you're fat!'- or this morning from a colleague of mine (not the first time, ok- I think they feel that I didn't quite hear it the first few hundred times!!)- 'Oh my God! You're SO HUGE!' <-- and how am I supposed to respond to this? a thank you perhaps? And if saying it not enough- they even make comparison just in case I still don't get it maybe.. They keep comparing me to another friend of mine who is of course pregnant and not big as I am. And they just ignore the facts that she is dued two weeks later and she is taller. And thank god she is a good friend of mine cos I swear to God, another comparison made I'd kill someone!!