U Make Me Wanna SCREAM!!

Now that my husband sends me to work, my stress starts from the minute I have to wake him up. Firstly of course, he would just ignore, by the third and fourth attempt he would either grumble on a good day or scream at me on a bad day.

If I were to drive, I'd make sure that I'll leave by 7 the most- because I don't need to be stuck in the traffic- I would rather be arrive early at the office and I can go buy my soymilk from my Uncle LRT or just sit at my desk and do my makeup!

My husband?? Nooooo... he would wake up, take a stick of cigarette- spends about 20 minutes in the shower (despite waking up late), we would leave at about 7 plus- today 730- by this time the traffic is just fantastic! And knowing that this would happen, any normal human being would just blame it on themselves rite? But not my husband- he would curse and bang on the wheels. Or he would drive like a maniac- tailing other cars- cursing of course for not giving him way.

Yesterday, I just couldn't hold my tongue anymore- I actually said to him to not go out late next time especially days when I have classes or perhaps not to take the federal highway at that hour.. Quote Unquote his reply was 'Duduklah Klang lagi!!' Incidents like these would always make me bite my lips so hard cos if I don't the next thing coming out from my mouth is not going to be pretty! And today in the car- I realise that I have this tendency to automatically bite my lips whenever I get in the car for no reason at all.. I guess over the last three years of marriage it has become a habit of mine. Hence, the reason why we don't talk anymore in the car or anywhere else for that matter because I have discovered that conversation with him is most of the time useless.

I'm surprised though, going thru this almost every morning..actually, every day- (after work when he picks me up is another story), my BP doesn't shoot up high!

Gosh.. how I long for a cigarette right now!!