My eyebrows are like the jungle!

Got our salary two days ago and already am now sinking deeper and deeper.. Went shopping for the stuff already- Managed to get everything ready for the baby - My hospital bag is not so empty anymore (maybe even need to change to a bigger bag! My mom thought I was moving out already!). I still have a few which I am contemplating- but I am already tired of making decision so I'll just drop it for now. But guess what- after spending that much for the stuff- I saw a WAREHOUSE SALE banner for ANAKKU!!!- sakit hati tak? Ergh...felt like kicking myself but what to do..money gone already!

I have also washed Dany's clothes to be handed down to the lil munchkin- the only think left is to get ready with the cot. FYI- still no bedding stuff!

hmm.. Mental note- need to remind my friends to throw me a BABY SHOWER!

Today. thinking of going for threading- don't want to scare my crew tomorrow! And guys- wish me luck! Also going for my check up tonite! Please fat go away just for tonite...

My List!!

I have finally sat down and made a- to-buy/have list for for the labour...

For Lil Munchkin

1. Onesies
2. Sleeper suits
3. Blanket
4. Towel
5. Mittens
6. Socks
7. Hat

Bathing Stuff

1. Bath gel
2. Shampoo
3. Diaper Rash
4. Vicks
5. Olive Oil
6. Baby Oil
7. Powder
8. Manicure set
9. Grooming set (Comb n such)
10. Rubber mat
11. bath tub
12. Wipes
13. Detergen
14. Toilettries box (Mothercare- I wish)

Mommy's Stuff!

For the Labour Bag

1. Toilettries
2. Towel
3. Kain batik
4. Comfortable top- shirts perhaps
5. Cute Hippo slippers!
6. 2 sets of baby's clothes
7. Diapers
8. Maternity pads
9. Disponsable panties
10. Maternity bras
11. Bra pads


Post Labour

1. Jamu stuff

Mummy's wishlist

1. Avent Nursing Kit (manual with bag and breast pump, bottles)
2. Maxi Co baby car seat
3. Stroller
4. Funky Diaper Bag
5. Free Slimming Treatment for Marie France
6. Mothercare's toilettries box

I Just Can't Stop EATING!!

K.. u know the list I was talking about? Still not ready.. Instead I was busy eating..nope..gobbling food!! With friends like Dona- See the picture below... U would understand why I just can't stop eating.







In the morning just b4 my class I had that 2 karipaps and a bowl of cereal. After class, just before lunch I had my mom's bihun goreng (yummy). 10 minutes later Dona called to go for lunch..how could I say no? It's a Friday- no one should be in the office during office hours! So we headed to FAM- I ate kuew teow soup with plenty of cili padi and my sirap limau. On our way back we stopped to get our usual Jambu Pak Ucu. When we reached the office we just had to buy air kelapa in front of the mosque (which happens to be next to our office).. (*slurping my air kelapa).. oh yeah- there's also cendol in the fridge 4 me... how?



This month check up is not going to be pretty!!Or can I just skip the weighing part?

God, my stomache right is like being stretched to the maximum that I feel if I poke a needle on it it will just explode! Oh yeah- I know that my boobies are so boobilicious rite now but focus on my stomach please.. now do u believe me when I said 'STRETCHED'...

I'm seeing stars...

Remember the headache I was talking about? Well, it's still there and occasionally accompanied by blinking stars. (Yet it didn't stop me from finishing my M&M stock!) Should I be alarmed?

35 weeks now and seriously I do not know what to expect- and they say seconds would be easier. I guess not for everyone though. The first time I religiously followed whatever advice from the pregnancy book. At this time around, I would have already packed my stuff for the hospital. I also made a very long list of the things to have/buy/do, I even did my birth plan. I had also gotten all the baby necessities ready by now. And what happened the second time around? Hmm.. let me see...

1. My hospital bag- empty! Oh, I did buy the hippo slippers from Watson! I still need socks, towels, baby's clothes, bras, disposable panties, toilettries, post labour clothes, maternity pad, diapers (just in case), chocolate!, a novel..whatelse?..

2. Baby's toilettries- if Dany's counts that I'm ok. And I need to buy the bath. Don't think Dany would be willing to share- or he would but with him inside it as well-lah! And the rubber mat too..

3. Baby's clothes- bought only a few from Mothercare and Pumpkin Patch <-- which is a new discovery for me cos I didn't know they have cute range for infants and cheaper than Mothercare too!

hmm.. I think I should sit down and start on the proper list already la ha?

Headache!!

Someone please take away this ache in my head! Been having it since 5 am this morning.. not that it's really bad but I don't normally get headaches and it irritates me.. But I did manage to eat 2 Karipap mahal already though. (This karipap is from this gerai under a tree and it's so popular that it's 60 cent per piece- thank god got chicken u know!)
Still hungry- will probably get my milk and start on my cereal before I drag myself to the class.. boring..boring.. for the past few days been hanging loose in the office and today got class! Not cool at all!
Anyways- will write more- got ten mins to gobble on my cereal!

Silence is all we have..

Yesterday we had to wait for Zureen to pass her something, so in the car while waiting I attempted to make a friendly conversation.. so this was how it went..

Me: So, how come you're not working again today? (He brought Dany out this morning til noon)
Crazy husband: Camane nak keje? I have to pick you up everyday. If I go to work, I can't go out frm the office!
And I bit my lips...


Still very ambitious, I asked another question.

Me: What did you do with Dany today? Where did you guys go?
Crazy husband: Subang
Me: What did you guys do?
Crazy husband:... silent...
Me: Kat subang kat mana?
Crazy husband: Depan Sunway
Me: So u buat apa lagi ngan Dany?
Crazy: Yg you nak tau ni kenapa?!!

And I bit my lips again. (and y do I do this? Because he is one male chauvinist, typical Malay mentality who believes that a wife should never reply back. And if she does, it's ok to hit her, even when she's pregnant.)

Zureen came, passed her the barang. Got into the car- I reclined my seat and sleep until I reached home. And that my friends, is my everyday- in- the- car routine with my husband. And he blames me because we don't talk anymore. Right.

....ishkk...

Have you ever got so annoyed by something so little? This is how I felt in my meeting just now- we were shown this presentation video thingy, people giving speech and things like that. So this colleague of mine, seated next to me kept going... mmm... a'ah..... a'ah... mmmm..mmm (EVERY five seconds!!) and once in while would repeat the words from the video.. Not just that- even when my boss was talking she was doing it.. occasionally interrupting her with unnecessary comment.. it was not even a comment- more to noises!!!

It drove me crazy!! I was this close to just 'masking taped' her mouth!!

So maybe it's just me and my pregnancy- but this person has been getting on my nerve lately! Not that she's nasty- but things like these and the fact that she's a bit TOO nice that it just... irks me.. u know like the cute lil bunny- so cute that u just want to squeeze it..

Or maybe I'm just turning evil....

My budget 2008

I do my budgeting every month and with the new one coming I did mine this year a few months ahead. At least the basic stuff that I need to be and boy- this time around it got me to just stare at the figures not knowing how to make it work. Obviously the income it's not sufficient.. I may also have to let go of my Master- I don't think I would be able to cope especially when I have to work twoce as hard. I definitely have to find another part time job- My weekend part time is not going to cut it.. although for in the past my weekend job is the one paying for my food, fuel and stuff. But now with the baby coming- it's double for diapers, milk, clothes etc..etc.. And although it is really hard to do this but Dany has to start drinking different milk- much cheaper one- plus the diapers as well. And Dany soon needs to go to school, on top of that, I'm still way behind with my hospital fund (my delivery)- I told my mom already that I may have to borrow her money just in case- paying it back is another story.

*Sigh.. Times like these I feel like killing my husband for a mere fact of impregnanting me eventhough time and time again I told him that we could not afford it. Especially when I know that I won't be getting any help from him. Now..shhhh munchkin dear- not that Mummy don't want you ok? It's just that I wish for a good life for you and your brother and I don't really know your daddy is part of it..
But nevertheless- life must go on and I would do all I can to make this work for u guys. And as for Daddy- Please help me God- not a single day goes by that I don't want to just strangle him in his sleep.

I guess 2008 is not going to be easy- but I have my lil munchkin to look forward to- can't wait for him to come out and greet the world but at the same time, I don't know if I can cope with it financially and mentally. But Mommy will make this work- I'd work triple jobs if I have to- and my Master will just have to wait. I'll protect you and cherish you, I promise that it would be alright.
(*Mental note: To call UM and inquire on the maximum extension period).

U Make Me Wanna SCREAM!!

Now that my husband sends me to work, my stress starts from the minute I have to wake him up. Firstly of course, he would just ignore, by the third and fourth attempt he would either grumble on a good day or scream at me on a bad day.

If I were to drive, I'd make sure that I'll leave by 7 the most- because I don't need to be stuck in the traffic- I would rather be arrive early at the office and I can go buy my soymilk from my Uncle LRT or just sit at my desk and do my makeup!

My husband?? Nooooo... he would wake up, take a stick of cigarette- spends about 20 minutes in the shower (despite waking up late), we would leave at about 7 plus- today 730- by this time the traffic is just fantastic! And knowing that this would happen, any normal human being would just blame it on themselves rite? But not my husband- he would curse and bang on the wheels. Or he would drive like a maniac- tailing other cars- cursing of course for not giving him way.

Yesterday, I just couldn't hold my tongue anymore- I actually said to him to not go out late next time especially days when I have classes or perhaps not to take the federal highway at that hour.. Quote Unquote his reply was 'Duduklah Klang lagi!!' Incidents like these would always make me bite my lips so hard cos if I don't the next thing coming out from my mouth is not going to be pretty! And today in the car- I realise that I have this tendency to automatically bite my lips whenever I get in the car for no reason at all.. I guess over the last three years of marriage it has become a habit of mine. Hence, the reason why we don't talk anymore in the car or anywhere else for that matter because I have discovered that conversation with him is most of the time useless.

I'm surprised though, going thru this almost every morning..actually, every day- (after work when he picks me up is another story), my BP doesn't shoot up high!

Gosh.. how I long for a cigarette right now!!

The chronology of my belly expansion...

8 months and counting...

7 months in PD
6 months
5 months in Phuket

4 months in Hong Kong

<----- 3 months and shopping at Bandung!

U definitely don't want to miss this.. check out how I drastically ballooned up in just a month...Now, at 34 weeks- my if you were to personify me to something, the exact match would be- A sack of potatoes!

My cravings...

I am now 34 weeks preggers. I was going thru babyrazzi.com and reading on Jolie's craving frenzy and it got me thinking- did I have a certain kind of craving this time around? Hmm.. let's go back..way back to the beginning.. I know the first 4 months I couldn't really eat anything. Then I started to drown myself with soy stuff- not that it was a crave more of a regime that I feel that I had to do..Oh yeah- my BFV (Blackforest Vanilla) intake every now and then.. also Mcdonald's Vanilla Sundae. but was that really a crave or just using the excuse of being pregnant? I don't think Prosperity falls in the craving category also bcos, pregnant or not, I would always make a point to stuff myself with prosperity while the promotion lasts. Once a year, rite?

Hmm.. other than that..nope.. no cravings! But I do eat a lot, that's for sure- especially sweet stuff and cold icy drinks...

My life as a pregnant woman

I went to c my Doctor or should I call him Datuk.. hmm... anyways- the hospital last nite was invaded by standing fans!! No air conditioner!! Aiyoh- how was that possible I do not know, but when it's my time they better have it or fill my room with ice for all I care...
Baby is now about 2kg and I put on 200gm over the last 2 weeks...Thanks to my heart burn sensation at nite I suppose..but still it's scary cos at 33 wks and 5 days- I have put on 18 kg..
6 more weeks to go- and I would probably end up with 20 over kgs again like before!
But I'm glad the baby is ok and growing..Bloody active though- this one- his kicks and punches sometimes cause me to wince. The cramping is worse that before- yesterday in the classroom I had to suddenly stop talking and sit down cos of my leg cramps. And when I walk, I would normally feel like the baby is dropping or the throbbing pain below my abdomen. But Doc said that the baby has yet to engage so it was probably be the belly stretching and the impact of the last c-section.
I still haven't figured out a name though- do u have any ideas? The initial should be D.A.- so Darwish Aizat? Daryl Aiden? Dany Aiden?Dean Asyraff?
Sigh....