The Drama in my life..

I can’t even remember when was the last time I sat down and wrote something in my blog… ok a bit dramatic there.. I could always check the date on my previous blog! I know..So many things have happened I don’t even know where to start.. Let me start with my marriage. It got worst at one point. Wanted out. Did things that I should have done a long time ago. But still married. Giving it another try. Husband.. hmm.. changed forawhile, I think. I don’t know. I guess we meet a lot less nowadays to have fights. But there would be that occasional handphone screaming and cursing. Sometimes I wonder how I could always bite my tongue and listen to all the profanity. You see, if I hung up, it will unleashing and even bigger monster. Harder now that I don’t have my friends around me.
Career. I switched job. A new job, still training but with a different training company. Salary wise, not so much but it is a company that I’ve always always wanted to get in. Contract or not, I took it. I figured, if I let go I would probably look back and regret. I believe in change. Good or not, it depends on how you take it. So, there. Nice people. Good food. Love the place. The only setback (apart from being a contract staff) is the location. I got a fever after a week of commuting. And yeah, I don’t think I’ll ever go back to my pre- pregnancy weight. With all the food, free coffee!! (mocha latte at least 3 cups a day!)- it’s almost impossible. Unless I take up the free aerobic session that we have on every Wednesday.
Micasa Su Casa. Still living with my parents. Have no idea no how to actually go out and rent on our own. There are so many things to consider. The nursery, rent, food, utilities, fuel, car, toll..
I guess, it will be a longer wait now.

ps: I'm actually observing a class and on the net at the same time. ;) Pictures above are the series of my moving process. From old job to new.

Thank you

My long over dued thank yous to those who made my 31st birthday, one of the many memorable ones that I have. Reminding myself I have good people surrounding me.. Thank you!!

My stuffy closet!!

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I finally had the guts to clear my closet. Finally putting away my XS an S sized clothes. No longer am I keeping them in case I got back that size again. No longer having dreams and hopes of becoming that small again. Finally...





I carefully packed everything and shoved it under my bed. I don't actually know what to do with it. Don't think any of friends can fit in it (no offence gals..) and some a bit to skimpy to give to Rumah Anak2 Yatim.. so let them be under the bed for now..





But there are still a few which I just refused to give up..Maybe I could pass this on to my future daughters (notice the plural form)..





First, my black really skimpy bare back top which was my ultimate clubbing top..kept for special occasion.. ;)

Second, summer halter dress. We came all the way, man.. had lotsa good times together

Third, my flashy army pants.. hehehe which everyone hates but I wore it only once or twice due to the extreme flashiness of the pants.

Fourth, my very thin brown halter top with my very thin stretchable skirt.. I can't even describe this one!! I can't even remember how many times they came to rescue everytime I got my wardrobe malfunctions!

Fifth, my MNG pedal pusher.. I love this pants so much that I think I overworn it.. notice how faded it is now!



So, be it! I'm not letting go of these. let them be my memoirs of the good old days..

Friends...

It's good to have many friends, rite? May it be a close one or just acquaintances.. but u know.. they can also cause awful lotsa holes in your pocket!! Especially during fasting month!! I'm not complaining, but just wishing I got more doe..hehe..

For the last few weeks, I have been going for like so many buka puasa sessions! Session with my TIKL friends (Teknik schoolmates), my girl power clan, my good friends from Uni and also my girl-school-friends. For some of them we only got to meet during occasions like this, for another some, we are always looking for a reason to eat!Haha.. that of course would be my girl pwer clan!!

At work and sleepy..

Haven't been writing for quite a while.. (what else is new.. )Not that there's nothing interesting.. it has been quite a ride for me.. Drama..drama..drama.. but the end result.. I'm still married to the same husband of mine, still bitching about my life!

We went to our friend's post christening party for her son and that would be the life that I so badly want to live in. Staying at Regency Aparment, party by the gorgeous pool, lovely food and people. I have since then calculated that... I would probably manage to have that but maybe not in this life time. But the reason why I'm telling you all these is not so much of the apartment, but the C.A.K.E. It was a plain butter cake.. but GORGEOUS!
It was from this lady by the name of Tracey, http://www.specialcakes.net/celebrationcakes4.htm

so do check it out people!! I give the cake 6 stars!!

Birthdays..birthdays..

These are the important dates which so happen to be in July

14th- Lela, my sista
20th- Umi, my sista too
26th- Zureen
27th- Remy
30th- Atan

NOT COMPLAINING.. actually kinda but u know, these are the people I love and it's not that we get to do this often- for all u know next year we would not be on talking terms anymore! Haha.. kidding.. guess people mature as they get older, I surely hope I do..

Anyways.. speaking of birthdays.. Mine is up next month! I already know what I want for presents.. not that I get it everytime but it's nice to VISUALISE..

So here we go..


MY WISH LIST

Dilemma..

*the pack are seated on the front row, the rest are also good friends of the pack, Zura is missing though. Has been missing for quite some time.

I know I haven't been bloggin for quite some time.. had back to back classes and when I have free time mostly would be busy uploading photos on facebook..

Anyway, since Rem got back from Jeddah we've been meeting up quite frequent now. Catching up and savouring lost time. The bad news is, everyone's birthday is this month, and yes eventhough it's after pay day but it did burn a hole in my 'purse'! So who are these people that I'm reminiscing good old times with? They are my TESL coursemates- we were actually more than that..it's like the wolves. Moving around in a pack, rite? So this was our pack- consisting of Zareen, Reeza, Remy, Atan, Zura and myself. Of course at times the boyfriends/ girlfriends were welcomed to join.

We didn't really care to mingle with others, we even stayed as housemates later on when we got kicked out of the residential college!

But those were the days.. if I could turn back the time and change things- I would probably ditch the boyfriends, cos they were just complicating things. But nothing else. Maybe to actually put effort in my studies but would probably party even harder! ;)

My ambitious attempt!

I have this dinner coming up. I planned to wear either one of these two dresses that I have, it used to be a size bigger and it was of those stretchable velvety material you know. So there I was, after my bath, naked, decided to try both of the dresses.

First horrific experience. The short long sleeved black velvet dress. Managed to get into the dress. Result: Jackfruit wrap aka Sarong nangka. Details: No visible waist but visible fat trying to get out of the dress. Then concluded that no one should see me in this dress. Rolled the dress upward (no zippers) to get out. Got stuck just below the shoulders. What did I do? PANIC ATTACK!! It was like World War II-Excrutiatingly painful and devastating! After about 10 minutes of struggle, I calmed down. Did the breathing exercise and slowly pulled the dress, with of course sounds of torn seams.

But of course, it didn't end there because I thought it would be different with the other dress. Same material, just longer. Hmm. Yes. Need I explain more? Let me just quote a friend of mine who said, 'I sometime have my dumb blonde moments'. And Yat- this time I have to agree with you!! And this was definitely one dumb blonde moment of mine!

Conclusion: Must go shopping for a dinner dress.

My first strand of grey hair!

I can't believe I forgot to write about the most important highlight of my life.. My first strand of white hair!! It was my good friend, Yatt... or was it Zureen (OMG! I AM old..can't even remember this and it was only two weeks ago!) who found it then pulled it out for me. Of course I was SHOCK at the same time TERRIFIED and also SAD! How now?

Jealousy...

They say we should be happy for others, and that our time will come.. but how true is that? Everyone, if not talking about buying a house, is already having one. Even the blog I was reading was talking about house hunting. A friend of mine is about to get her keys to the new house and she is not even married yet. And here I am, 31 yrs old. Married. With two kids. Staying with my parents and could never ever experience that feeling of having your own house. That sense of security and accomplishment. Why, because I'm blacklisted and I don't see myself being unblacklisted in this lifetime.
So do I envy the rest of the world? Yes. But I try not to. Trying to be positive. Hey, you never know. Perhaps I'll win a house from those slogans competition, or I stumble upon a bag full of money or.. hmm.. well.. I can always dream.

Why I hate my job..

Hm.. I don't actually hate my job.. let me rephrase that.. I hate the people that I work with.. And no 1 reason..

The very first day that I'm back in the office I was summoned to replace this person (we call her cookie..long story..) to go for this Spoken English course in Royale Bintang, KL. Dont get me wrong- I love going for external courses- anything to be away from the office, but I don't quite see why anyone should go for this course.

Key topics: Parts of Speech, Greetings, etc..etc..

Target audience: Clerk, despatch, customer service personnel etc..etc..

I'm like?? what the hey.. I'm not saying that my English is superb and all that- but it is my forte and the reason I believe I was hired. And they considering this 'XX' consultants to train our staff.. and I've never even heard of this consultancy.. i would understand if the prefer British Council ke, ELS or ERICAN for that matter over me..but this one?

K, fine. I'm a nobody- I should just do it rite, less work for me anyway. But I just knew it will somehow create a bad impression of me..

Whateverlah.. wish me luck and hopefully I get back in one piece.

p.s: the last time I was in KL was hmmm.. I can't even remember!!

What the heck I'm doin in the office? Part II

k.. my level of productivity today is ..let me see.. maybe about 25%. And that is for updating my dependants' list @hr department.. other than that I don't see any reason why i should be here.. I think my two munckins need me more at home and there are 1001 things I can do.. yes including changing diapers for 38 times, chasing Dany to get him to shower, pinning him down (picture WWF wrestler in action) to brush his teeth etc..etc..

I know I'm not supposed to write about them in this blog- I've designated a blog just for them cos i'm determine to make this space as a place for me to bitch about my life, people (most of the time my husband, of course) and everythingelse cos I am almost insane- but I couldn't help it.. I miss my kids..

Being with the for a solid two month duration was actually not bad at all. Of course there were times when I want to just kill myself or my husband- but I'm now used to Dany's mischieves and Germanish Jibberish talk. Ady on the other hand is the perfect baby- there would be times when he couldn't sleep at night and had me going til 3-4 a.m but most often than not he would sleep thru the night.

And now I'm back at work and the bloody Vincci shoes hurt like hell!! Damn you 50% off shoes..

SELAMAT PENGANTIN BARU ADIKKU

JUNAIDAH

& MEGAT HELMY

It's about time people!!

Wish you all the best and of course to my favourite brother in law.. I know u can do this!! Love ya'..

And I'm back in the game...

7.35 am

Alone in the office. My first day, had teribble time choosing for the right clothes.. one that can actually fit me. I seriously hate being here.. Don't know if I hate the job or working all together.. i wish I can just stay home and still got paid.. Why can't maternity leave be..like... forever? anyways- to make me feel good on this very memorable day- bought myself a brand new shoes- 50% off from Vincci..Yey!

and can someone please switch on th a/c- it's bloody hot in here!! or is it just me?

Serabut

As my title reads... I am so messed up rite now.. A lot of things had happened in the month of May.. May is not a good month this year.. but it is also the month of my sister's wedding- June and her long time boyfriend who is already part of the family.. Maybe I should rephrase is to a hectic month instead..

I am going back to work in a few days time.. not looking forward to it.. partly because I hate my workplace and also a huge factor would be the fact that I can't fit in any of my baju except of course my preggie clothes!! Damn it..

Evrything is just wrong right now.. I had to let go of this so 'worth it' apartment that we found.. I love it so much and it was darn cheap for a beautifully furnished apartment. And I forgot the fact that my mom can't take care of Adyan cos she has loads of other things to do.. We can;t hire a maid cos we don't have xtra rooms.. Meaning if we do I have to actually move out.. meaning.. on top of paying the rent (which we can't afford- thus the reason of letting go the apartment) I have to pay for the maid.. So what now? To send Adyan to a babysitter is the only way that I can afford rite now but I am so so sceptical about it..

With all this on my shoulders rite- the only thing to do is to cut my hair and pretend that I am a princess in my very own La La Land! And everything is happily ever after...

Black Cloud Went Passing By..

In loving Memories of,

Naini bt Ibrahim

(1925- 14th June 2008)

I love you Wan, though I never get to say it to you. Al- fatihah.

Pelangi Petang- Sudirman

Kumeniti awan yang kelabu

Kutempuhi lorong yang berliku

Mencari sinar yang menerangi

Kegelapanku

Kupercaya pasti suatu masa

Sang suria kan menyinar jua

Membawa harapan yang menggunungBersamanya...

Engkau tiba bagaikan pelangi

Tak bercahya namun kau berseri

Tapi cukup menghiburkan

Hati iniSeharian waktu bersamamu

Tak terasa saat yang berlalu

Bagai pelangi petang kau kan pasti

Pergi jua...

A friendly community service reminder..

This is specially for Mommies, going to be mommies or planning to be mommies...

Please stay true to the legacy of 'berpantang'.. Don't cheat.. be strong... it's only 44 days... U know y?

Cos you'd probably end up like me if you didn't...

:(

I am nowdown with a flu.. coughing, running nose and slight temperature.. kesian baby! So don't ever do that to your new born child for the sake of pleasing your taste buds..

I have now learnt my lesson!!

Tired...

My pantang regime is definitely over.. well at least the food part- I am still not allowed to go out.. the food however, now that I am past a month, my mom is definitely lenient in my food selection.. (not that she knows what I've been eating weeks before)
I have three more weeks before my sister's wedding and to also lose 8 kg's.. Am I living in the reality or am I still allowed to dream... On that note, I sometimes dream of killing my husband too.. I think I am going nuts!!

Another new chapter- House Hunting

As you all know- I am staying with my parents. Although it was supposed to be a temporary arrangement since I was heavily pregnant with Dany, I got comfortable and well.. with my husband working habit.. it actually was our only option.
Convenient it may be.. it is and will never be a good idea to live with your parents. Of course there a lot of times I feel blessed that I have my parents to help out especially with Dany (also maybe it's more because of Dany their first grandchild!) but there are also times when I want to be on my own. But having a husband like mine.. I am not sure if I can pull it off.. well, guys.. we're about to find out soon..

Now that I have Adyan (A- di- yen), my 'Wan' (grandmom) is not well and she's living with us- I voluntered to live out. We don't have a 8 rooms bungalow that can fit all of us.. Us meaning- all of my 7 siblings! I am excited- well, it's a good reason which my mom can't reject but also scared at the same time!

I have always love house hunting- some people may find it a hassle but I loveeeeee looking at houses especially those expensive ones that I can't afford!

And one good example is this house! Location wise- fantastic!! Walking distance to AEON Shopping mall- gated community with club house..

Klang
Ambang Botanic (Bandar Botanic), Selangor





QuikPro No: UP42979
Property Type: 2-sty Terrace/Link
Tenure: Freehold
Title Type: Individual
Land Area: 26 x 75
Built-Up: 2600 sqft
Bedrooms: 4+1maid+1s
Bathrooms: 5
Situated: Intermediate Unit
Occupancy: Vacant
Furnishing: Unfurnished
Facing Direction: South
Posted Date: 19/5/2007
Facilities: Barbecue Area, Business Centre, Cafeteria, Club House, Covered Parking, Gymnasium, Jogging Track, Mini Market, Nursery, Playground, Salon, Sauna, Squash Court, Swimming Pool, Wading Pool, Tennis Court, 24hr Security
BRAND NEW 2 STOREY HOUSE ENCLAVED IN THE RESORT LIVING STYLE. 24 HOURS GUARDED, GATED AND EACH HOUSE WITH ALARM AND PANIC BUTTONS SYSTEM. FOR BUYER, THE 5 STAR NEWLY LAUNCHED BOTANIC RESORT CLUB MEMBERSHIP IS INCLUDED

And guess how much is the rental???????? Focking RM850!!!!!!(mind my language I curse when I'm excited!!) Mana nak jumpa this kind of price?? brand new and all!! Only in Klang baby!!!!!! Now- if only I can swap my husband to a properly functional one... then perhaps it is feasible....

AAAAAAAAAAAAAARGGHHH!!!

I am so frustrated rite now.. this is the biggest frustration this year.. hmm.maybe the second biggest.. the biggest would be my cowardness in dealing with the labour pain and not asking the doctor to wait.. the second would be finding out that the name DARIUS actually bears meaning!!!! I loveeee that name so much but it didn't sound like it has any meaning to it..well at least not in Islamic way..so i didn't even bother to look up!
but I just found out from this site- my-anak.com (confinement boredom..) that the meaning is- baik budi- tinggi... AAAAAAAAARRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHH.... this is one of those moments where I wish I could turn back the time.. apparently these moments happen quite often lately..

How DitDot became Danish Adyan Zulkarnain

To tell you the truth.. I had no idea at all.. I was already giving up and wanted to just not use the D. A initials.. It's bloody difficult to find names that start with D.. I mean good nice one..which is not being overused..like Daniel or Danish.. Wanted Damien- but a bit too Mat Salleh.. I like Dean but - hmm.. not that convinced that it is a nice sounding name. I like Rayyan- as I understand just today that another friend of mine is eyeing that name too..But apparently my husband still wants to stick to D.A which was a surprise to me bacase this whole D.A thingy was my idea! So padan muka i.. On the sixth day he suggested Dinesh? What the ????So I said Danish is better..I mean obviously... but it was supposed to be an argument to the name Dinesh..not a suggestion.. but it was a bit too late cos he liked it immediately and already calling my DitDot Danish.. so DitDot- if you have 5 other Danish- es in your classroom.. I am so sorry- blame your daddy ok? We decided on Adyan on the seventh day.. actually I decided.. it was a battle between Aiden and Adyan.. Aiden of course takde meaning but I so love that name.. I stumbled on Adyan in one of the long list of Muslim names I googled and saved. I like that it's different.. so on the seventh day we had our name. We registered the name on the 13th day.. FYI Zulkarnain is by default!

So guys- my baby DitDot is to be called Baby Adyan (pronunciation- 'A- D- ien') not Danish call we all know how many Danish we have out there!

What the hell is wrong with my typing?

Looking back at all my blogs.. I notice I have problems spelling and I am too lazy to correct them! I rather write this blog instead!

My confinement story..

Hmm.. I wish I have the will to be be strong.. I guess I am never that strong especially when I bailed out and went straight for the operation theater the last time! So my first few days at the hospital was basically bread and porridge. The first two days I wasn't allowed to eat.. But the real deal started when I got back home.. First few days..no big deal..had the socks on, ate just plain rice with salted fish in pepper and vinegar. After a few days- ate bread (not supposed to cos apparently yeast= wind). After the next few days- found oreos! And I finished the whole pack!
Second week- the weather so hot- I had to sip on the cold water! But I still have my socks on.. I'm not eating jamu like when I had Dany.. Had those smelly Jamu stuff rubbed on my body only for a few times.. I think they lasted for a week or so.. I guess this time around everything is so laid back. Mom is not around often, perhaps she trusted me to be good.. but Mom- how can u ever leave me alone at home with all those food in the kitchen?

My back is killing me.. maybe I'll go urut after I finish my house arrest- which supposed to be on the 15th May..

What's hidden in your name?

What My Name Means

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are incredibly wise and perceptive. You have a lot of life experience. You are a natural peacemaker, and you are especially good at helping others get along. But keeping the peace in your own life is not easy. You see things very differently, and it's hard to get you to budge. You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start. You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow. You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily. Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is. You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life. You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home. You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble. You are a very lucky person. Things just always seem to go your way. And because you're so lucky, you don't really have a lot of worries. You just hope for the best in life. You're sometimes a little guilty of being greedy. Spread your luck around a little to people who need it. You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out. Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia. Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

Try it guys..i'd say I agree to all the wonderful positive ones..hehehe!

The chonological- The arrival of Danish Adyan Zulkarnain

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